TGIT

Now that looks kinda kinky

I am almost on vacation

We will go to the meeting tomorrow morning, then to my Pain Doc, then to a bunch of small errands that will have us gone all day

I really am not looking forward to it, cause DH may just chew out the doc for his management is just writing me rx for pain meds and not "treating"

Of course the treatment is not "sitting well" still, and I am a mess mentally

But now I am squawking like a chicken, instead of soaring above it..

I am such a schmuck for complaining all the time.. my life just sux

Crazy week and lazy week

I don't mind the middle of the week day of rest, but it would be nice to have a real day that I am not doing ANYTHING

I haven't figured out how to make it work, but I don't have the patience for my meeting.

I know it helps to go, the idea of not going is kinda delish... laying around in my nightie, etc.

The idea of starting a project and not stopping.. just pushing thru until I realize I haven't had a chance to drink coffee... or need a shower and see it is already 11 am... cool.

I don't think it is a matter of being lazy, just a matter of being out of sorts right now.

I am committed to finishing my little project for the group on Wednesday, and have to finish the project for the Thursday meeting, because I am the featured speaker, and it is not cool to not be finished.. lol.

So I guess I will make a fair effort to do some of this on the weekend, and make it nice..

Tired

I wonder sometimes

Is the feeling of nausea, exhaustion, aches and such my new normal?

After starting the new meds for the hand pain I have not figured out how the new stuff is helping, when I am hurting instead. The meds are effecting my digestion and stuff, things are not "regulated" as they should be, and stuff goes in and doesn't go out..

But if I don't feel better by next wednesday I guess I will talk with my APA Courtney and start looking for another drug of choice. Adding the ZIPSOR just keeps me from having the killer headaches and it is an anti-inflamitory.

So I guess I am stuck for another week.

Thursdays suck anyway.

It is proven once again

After reading my last blog entry I mosy over to the Simple Woman blog..

It is a given, my mood is such a downer these days, and I blame myself, my health, and my situation...

So what better way to uplift: give it over. hand it over. place it in our Lord's hands and turn my back on it.

How simple to say it, but hard for this A profile to do.

I do not release anything to anyone

I do not find comfort in handing my "stuff" to someone else

Who am I to decide anything? My decisions are meaningless, because my life is not mine own to direct.

Face the facts Debe, smack yourself in the back of the head, close your eyes, meditate, do what ever you need to do. But face the fact: REMEMBER: YOU are not in control of anything.

Bless me and hold the gravy, what a wonderful reminder that I find over at Simple Woman Blog



~ ~ Hope For The Sweet Morning ~ ~ ~
"For Christians, the beginning of the day should not be burdened and haunted by various kinds of concerns that they face during the day. The Lord stands above the new day, for God has made it. All restlessness, all impurity, all worry and anxiety flee before him. Therefore, in the early morning hours of the day, may our many thoughts and our many idle words be silent and may the first word and the first thought belong to the one to whom our whole life belongs "
~Dietrich Bonhoeffer

amen

In a world of dissapointments and depression

BTW

I am not a miss mary sunshine, nor a miss susie sunshine

The dark side of the moon is my choice, if given a choice

I need a zap of happy times, a shot of wonderful fun, a pinch of good friends all mixed together to get my blues behind me

But since I am not a happy wonderful fun friend, it takes effort to get over the blues and be likable and necessary in someones life

tgif

I guess if this week is over, being in the office part of the week over, not having to get up and shower and move my bucket over, not caring how I come across (to the other side of the desk) over, I am glad

No happy dance, just glad.

Working on a collage for a change, based on an old hand stretched framed oil painting I picked up at a garage sale, piled guesso on it and smoothed and scraped and enhanced the textures.

On top is material, squares of plywood, cardboard, and dimentional paints.

I have stamped, circled, etc making xxx and ooo all over the canvas

with that as the theme, I am going to do a hugs and kisses tag, a SWAK, a valentine heart, and someone blowing a kiss, and a big hug ...

maybe too much action, but bling and such is needed...

TGIF

After a lovely visit to a garage sale before work (I helped with set up and scooted out before I got blocked in) I hopped back into the van and got to work at 7am.

TOO EARLY

I did have some phone calls to make and then started checking my emails, and did a little house keeping for the office.

It was actually nice outside and I opened the office door

Today has been uneventful, except for no compliance with some of the stuff going on, as in I am double checking work of Mr Boss, sometimes there are problems and we can not understand what is going on... dammit anyway...

Journal Help

Interesting to format your journal when you are kinda stuck, this gets you started!



FOR TODAY
Outside my window...cars are going up and down Main Street, 2 fast for the 20 mph limit the sun is sparking off windsheilds and chrome as they drive by.
I am thinking...it looks pretty, and warm and sunny and I am inside at the computer, can not help but wish I had wireless at the office so I could sit out in back on a nice day like this.
I am thankful for...having a job. Support from my online friends I can visit with during the workday and discuss our woes, aches and pains, joys and disapointments
I am wearing...a size smaller cropped black pants and a turquois t-shirt..ye ha! Another 2.75 pounds lost this week, and the 2.5 miles walked several mornings a week help so much!
I am creating...some doodles to keep my mind tranquil, it is easy to get antsy and distracted by the artsy ideas swimming around in my head, and doodles help oodles.
I am going...out of my mind, lol..to a garage sale preview tomorrow at lunch where I hope to score some interesting items to pack rat for my mixed media work, I am sure there is no such thing as too many watches, clocks or broken jewelry.
I am reading...Secret Longings of the Heart by Carol Kent, a very interesting book written by a pastors wife, who is published and a sought after speaker and this book is a question and answer book regarding many issues you may have wondered about but were to scared to ask... her take on many subjects and her interpritation of where in the bible she could find answers
I am hoping...that today goes by at a steady pace, my hands are tired from typing and the LCD screen is giving me a major case of eye boogers... or it is allergies..
I am hearing...the normal shhhhhh hissssss buzzzzzz of my tinnyitis
A few plans for the rest of the week:getting organized for mothers day bbq
Here is picture for thought I am sharing...

I am always intrigued by sites that share the fotos and links to old fotos to use in art

Hard to be creative

when you are trying to create

better to create when you aren't trying

doing some doodles that are interesting, but when I doodle 2 doodle something creative, it blows

loving some of the stuff I doodle, and will do something with it, like quarter shots

need to scan some stuff so I can edit it without messing with the original

bad part is not being able to doodle randomly and then do a connect the dots: to pull the whole together

maybe some kind of zentangle thingy, which I love but not necessary to call it zentangle - because I have doodled this way for more than 20 years.. but it does lead me in different directions

excessive NEED to doodle has shown a downside, and it bothers right hand, by the end of the day have a sore wrist, like when I had tendonitis

I'm A Pain

Since starting this blog page I have lost it...

litteraly (in my way of spelling, and my way of thinking)

in my way

I have remembered that I thought I was looking at starting a blog somewhere, and then found out that I did start a blog... and then forgot again.

I am trying to start a group of unknown artists, but so far I only know 3 unknowns, including myself...

Also deciding if my "art injury" will be holding up some of my ideas and keep me out of the different "shows"

My "art injury" is ongoing nerve damage, can't see any damage to the "hand" or "wrist" using the old fashioned X-Ray, then the Nerve Conduction Test shows NOTHING, and the MRI shows nothing, and then I get recommended to go see a Pain Specialist

Doctor D and his APA Courtney ... they are excellent caregivers... wonderful gentle questions and methods of "examination" easy access to the office, and they have returned my calls !

They have messed with my dosage of the meds for my leg pain (neuropathy it is called, and then added the restless leg thingy) and ended up increasing it to help me sleep. The pain med I have been taking is an ANALGESIC...

When it is time for a pill, it is TIME FOR A PILL.

Unfortunate that it has ramped up my other stuff, but I hope it will calm down a bit.

I have also become anxious... and that requires another pill that I am not taking..

So it goes.

I am not taking anything that will make any IMPROVEMENTS, just change the quality of life thing.

Quality of life thing is important, cause it is hard to do stuff with PAIN and it is hard to do stuff that will end up causing pain...